“When one door closes another door opens, but we so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the ones which open for us.”
I do not beg to be understood as to why I did what I did. Suffice to say that I am still sane, I know what I am doing, and really, I should stop looking at the closed door because it is unhealthy.
As a matter of fact I am at peace right now. I did it calmly and it was as if a huge burden has lifted off my shoulder. Nobody asked me not to leave. On contrary, news spread directly from my superior, and like a bushfire, the whole company knew in an instant. I expected it anyway. Goes on to show that not only my superior does not appreciate my contribution, he doesn’t bother if I resigned or not. No succession plan is in motion. Maybe they thought my job is unimportant, replacement can be done slower, and workload can be distributed among my colleagues. *Shrugs* Doesn’t matter to me anyway. I’ll just turn off my phone if they can’t pack finished goods to export and cause customer claims and lawsuits. It is their problem, not mine. I have had enough showing up at 11.30 pm again and again because of it and got rewarded by the haunted popping photostat machine. I have had enough of people screaming at me in the middle of the night about things that I couldn’t control. I have had enough with work related injuries.
I believe, therefore, it is time to leave. In fact, I’ve been thinking of it for quite sometime. There are better offers who came and went, came and went. I just have no time to go for job interviews because I was too busy. Silly me to turn down job offers from Penang because it was too far to attend the interviews. Really, when I was too busy I have no time to look back and reflect on my job and whether or not I am satisfied of it.
I believe I do not owe anyone a reason save for myself. Sometimes it is really so hard to please everyone no matter what I did or didn’t do. I am exhausted, really. And the Human Resource demands me to turn in my job descriptions when it was supposed to be their job to write them. So yeah, good luck to the next person.